Life

I wonder what life would be like if I just stop breathing? How can love be so amazing but also difficult to deal with...in life I wish to be vocal as much as I am understanding...I wish to erase the past and start all over again, with new memories and a new mindset...I wish my life hadn't been so hard growing up but glad that it was, because I am who I am today...life is vicious but breath taken...life is dull but also adventurous and wonderful...what is ones soul to do without that special person standing by them...how can pride overpower dignity? Tell me where do I stand in your mind when I'm not around you...is my loyalty not enough to attract you? What am I lacking that I can't see? More questions unanswered and empty promises being given..I love hard and wish the same...I know deep down you care about me, but why does your actions towards me say otherwise? Am I not woman enough for you or smart enough? I think about life everyday, deciding on what to do next.