The Poignancy Harangue of a Disenchanted Beau

1st Person:
Little do you realize or know, how much I am tearing apart on the inside while you're falling asleep -
Little do you realize or know, that I'm still haunted by the memories of far-off war-torn places and of all my self-regrets -
Little do you realize or know, that each and every day I am tiresomely trying to put myself back together piece by piece by jagged piece -
Little do you realize or know, how tormented I am by the things I cannot forget and by the regrets of the shambles of my past -
Little do you realize or know, that all of my past and current mistakes are slowly drowning me in a pool of my own despair -
Little do you realize or know, how the words you so haphazardly speak are harsher than you realize –
Little do you realize or know, that your careless words are inadvertently cutting away at what is undoubtedly hard to recognize anymore ~ my own self-esteem -
Babe, little do you realize or know that I am a work in progress and I need a bit more time to figure myself out -
Underneath this persona of my carefree impenetrable go-lucky character is an emotionally broken imprisoned distraught man who I knew once very well -
And I hold it all together by the captivation of the hope that the hole inside my soul will close someday rather than continuing to expand until it consumes me -
I've been holding much of what I want to say for fear of being reamed for what it is that I think, feel or opinionate -
Or the fact that if what you hear spew forth from these lips of mine would wind up making you change your mind on how you feel about me -
Yes, I've already forgiven you for all the transgressions that you’ve unwittingly done unto me -
Although forgetting them is not as easily done because truth be told it is much harder to do then you realize or know -
In time I hope that not only you but rather the both of us will see eventually what it is we do not understand or know about one another. In regards to how it is that we each tearing each other down, and haphazardly speak ill of each other with no regards to how our words affect one another on a deeper level than we realize or know...

2nd Person:
Oh, how little did I not realize or know these things to which you are secretly hiding my beloved -
Rest assured that it is my best interest that I do my best to remedy these things that bother you so -
Also, know that I do love you to the point where you'll never have ever to feel the pain that you feel now ever again -
Just be still and fret not for I promise that you don't have to be so afraid of the unknown anymore -
Because the love I have for you is here and here to stay and will not waver -
It is also you who I am thankful for because I could not live without you –
Little do you realize or know, that I do try every day to make things as conducive as possible for the both of us -
Little do you realize or know, that I actually do know that you are hurting all the while despite me sleeping or not -
Little do you realize or know, that it isn't all my fault that you are breaking for it is also you who is responsible too -
Little do you realize or know, that I am not responsible for your interpretation of the words that I say, for that is solely on you and me -
Little do you realize or know, how it is that I'm desperately trying to make it better piece by piece, but your negative mindset isn't exactly helping things improve...

1st Person:
Oh, how can you be so oblivious to what little do you realize or know?
You do not realize anything that you are doing, and you know even lesser than that -
For I have not been hiding these things secretively from you either -
For I have expressed these things to you during our bitter, disgruntled arguments that we have nearly every day -
And little by little your obliviousness is slowly chipping away of what is left of my belief that there is anything left to salvage in what is remains of this love of ours -
Us going round and round forcing the blame upon one another for the faults we both are responsible for committing is getting us nowhere -
All these pointing fingers and forcing negative emotions upon each other is only gradually adding more fuel to the flames of animosity for one another –
It is ever-increasing the spread of catastrophic destruction -
In all honesty, I have no idea what the catalyst was that sparked the destructive kindle which seems to be the inevitable fiery undoing of all the love we are and the memories we've made -
Now, this is bound to happen to the both of us if we do not take note of how our words and actions seem to affect the other profoundly...

Oh, when will the obliviousness of hurting one another come to an end?
For I do not want to be standing in the ashes of the aftermath of what was once us looking back through the smoldering flames thinking of what could have been and should have been -
And I am pretty sure that you do not want to do the same either, now do you?

1st & 2nd Person Together:
Little do we do we both realize or know, that our own actions and words of negativity are tearing us apart -
Little do we do we both realize or know, how blinded we are by our own insecurities -
Little do we do we both realize or know, that we are slowly drowning each other and our own misery -
Little do we do we both realize or know, how foolishly blinded we are to each other's feelings -
Little do we do we both realize or know, that if we keep going down this path of obliviousness, it is bound to be the reasons why we go our separate ways...

1st Person:
Now, babe going our separate ways shouldn't be the last thing you and I do together -

2nd Person:
No, it shouldn't be. I mean honestly hun I don't want our last memory being us going our separate ways -

1st Person:
Then, why can't we find a mutual ground to stand on instead of two separate points of views?

2nd Person:
Seriously? What you seem to fail to realize or know is that there aren't two sperate points of views that is tearing us apart. It's only yours that is doing it and not mine -

1st Person:
Welp, neither of us seems to be right or wrong about our perspective on how we see things now does it?

2nd Person:
Why can you not just take responsibility for what it is you are doing the both of us!?

1st Person:
Wait? What in the hell! I mean, how is it you assume that I do not realize or know this already? Ha, you have to be kiddin' right? For I know that my perspective isn't exactly too keen on you. But what right do you have to try and hold that against me?

2nd Person:
There you go again acting as though your negative minded perception isn't something to be desired or improved upon yet again -

1st Person:
Now, who's to say whether my perception is right or wrong or to be improved upon? Surely it isn't you or anybody else for that matter! No one has the god given right to be that judgy against somebody else's point of view! Now, do they? -

2nd Person:
Well, if we're being honest, I know that if anybody else knew you as well as I did, they would say the same about you -

1st Person:
Wait, what!? You, proclaim that you know me very well? Whatever...
You know what? What it is that you're saying furthers proving my case in point that you are entirely oblivious to your narcissistic cannibalistic tendencies -
And by arguing about whose point of view is right or wrong is getting us nowhere and just causing more hostility and animosity between the both of us -
So, since this is getting us nowhere, I'm going to exit stage left cause I've got better things to do to sit here and argue with someone who is unaware of their own inadequacies...

2nd Person:
See there you go again wanting to give up and act as though you've done nothing wrong -

1st Person:
.... (footsteps of walking away)

2nd Person:
Hey, where are you going?

1st Person:
To find the trio of rationality principles and reasonableness so I can have a discussion with them about why there are such things as illogicalness, double standards, and unscrupulousness in this world...