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I Wish I Could Justify My Heart
I was created with a mind that is far from normal behind these blue
eyes
Never will it take one long to see there is a heart of gold beneath my adornment of my pale skin
Since childhood , have I been in touch with everybody's heart, as even from the outside; I can hear and feel their
cries
I've always carried the weight of the world on my shoulders; as if it is not only my burden, but my greatest
sin
Always have I been a little girl dreaming; dancing to her own little beat and living in the recesses of
her imagination
My mind is always in overdrive; messy and heavy, so easily can I trap myself within my every waking
thought
I was cursed with a soul has always felt too deeply and I can make another's pain my very worst
devastation
Away to color my own world for comfort as a child; it was animals, crayons and music I sought
My heart, mind and soul is overly sensitive and takes everything to heart; rarely do I know any other mode to live
in than restless
I can feel around the edges of people; sensing all signs of hurt, pain and even the trials of a stranger
Because my heart is so big and wants to fix everyone, can one easily believe me to be obsessed and my words to be
reckless
If only they knew how anxious my heart is; either I sink my fingers in deep or distance myself from it's first fear of
danger
In every kind of relationship , I throw in my all, I love and care deep and hard, but I also crash that way
I'm too full of love to allow hatred to burrow inside , but my mind holds onto disappointment and harbors
resentment
I so often hate every fiber of it and I wish I could embrace it like a virtue, it's not like I really have a say
Then I look to those that are careless and empty, thinking that possibly I was blessed and not cursed with a heart full of it's each gentle sentiment
eyes
Never will it take one long to see there is a heart of gold beneath my adornment of my pale skin
Since childhood , have I been in touch with everybody's heart, as even from the outside; I can hear and feel their
cries
I've always carried the weight of the world on my shoulders; as if it is not only my burden, but my greatest
sin
Always have I been a little girl dreaming; dancing to her own little beat and living in the recesses of
her imagination
My mind is always in overdrive; messy and heavy, so easily can I trap myself within my every waking
thought
I was cursed with a soul has always felt too deeply and I can make another's pain my very worst
devastation
Away to color my own world for comfort as a child; it was animals, crayons and music I sought
My heart, mind and soul is overly sensitive and takes everything to heart; rarely do I know any other mode to live
in than restless
I can feel around the edges of people; sensing all signs of hurt, pain and even the trials of a stranger
Because my heart is so big and wants to fix everyone, can one easily believe me to be obsessed and my words to be
reckless
If only they knew how anxious my heart is; either I sink my fingers in deep or distance myself from it's first fear of
danger
In every kind of relationship , I throw in my all, I love and care deep and hard, but I also crash that way
I'm too full of love to allow hatred to burrow inside , but my mind holds onto disappointment and harbors
resentment
I so often hate every fiber of it and I wish I could embrace it like a virtue, it's not like I really have a say
Then I look to those that are careless and empty, thinking that possibly I was blessed and not cursed with a heart full of it's each gentle sentiment
Published 2nd Dec 2018
| Edited 16th Mar 2019
Author's Note
Just some cheesy rhyme about my head here lately
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Anonymous
2nd Dec 2018 8:51pm
This is beautiful and reflects exactly who I feel you are. I truly believe it and I hope you believe me when I say, that you are beautiful as you are. I will always see you like this. Beautiful poem from a beautiful soul. Hugs my friend. J
3rd Dec 2018 9:27pm
2nd Dec 2018 8:56pm
Beautiful write from a beautiful soul. So touching and refreshing to hear of someone who cares...it is a heavy burden you bear.
3rd Dec 2018 9:28pm
2nd Dec 2018 10:25pm
an awakening being it sounds like...even though it often seems we live in such dark and foreboding times there is also a great awakening taking place among millions of relatively obscure souls...the most beautiful flowers germinate in the darkness...it's very courageous of you to expose yourself so openly...you are not alone S.
3rd Dec 2018 9:30pm
2nd Dec 2018 11:17pm
It takes that kind of heart and soul to be able transfer feelings into works of art. Lovely piece Pandy
3rd Dec 2018 9:32pm
3rd Dec 2018 1:21am
Not cheesy. Empathy can often be draining. I can relate to this write. Your heart is divine, you just must learn to trust it and protect it when others can be overbearing. There are others among you who feel this way.
3rd Dec 2018 9:34pm
Thank you, Tenderloin. I'm sure I'm not with all the heartbreak all these poet's are full of!
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