Lost_in_my_Self

Everything swirls around me
I may be lost in the self  
Never go on not knowing  
I am part of the else  
 
Ya the younger me grew up too fast  
Yeah i know they all be saying that shit  
Everyone has a story to tell  
Everyone is scarred; ghosts in a shell  
 
Wanted to make my own path  
But I ended up on some track  
Like where do i go from here  
Nothing and no one ever is clear  
 
Run it run it  
 
Never going quit on my dream shit  
I'm keep it geeked, never clean but i mean it  
Topple beams got my energy peaked  
Got my whole history to set the scene  
 
I hope you feel me now  
 
Let me take a minute to say  
I needed everything to go this way  
The man this pain makes will go on  
Wear this namesake wear it strong  
 
Let me take a minute to say  
I know that at times I may run astray  
Never in my lifetime till I bust a lifeline  
Will this all be fine, keep me up on thee grind  
 
While my heart is beating  
Lungs are breathing  
My hands are heated  
But what am I seeking?  
What does this all mean I cannot reason  
 
Brought to my knees with the season change  
Feel like I'm bleeding leaking like the rain  
Like i'm losing life force deep overwhelmed  
 
Like i'm from a different realm than everyone else, nah  
Like I wish ya well but we better pray, god  
 
Like a little boy lost  
In a world made for men  
Void on the inside  
Only thing wicked is my pen  
 
Let me take a minute to say  
 
Everything swirls around me  
I may be lost in the self  
Never go on not knowing  
I am part of the else