I Lost

I lost someone I truly love all because I decided to fulfill all of my sex desires.
That is what I'll say.
That is what I'll say when they ask me why am I no longer with the man I love.
My wants were stronger than my needs,
And my mind weaker than my heart.
I hurt the one I needed and wanted the most.
I gave up a blissful life time all for 45 lustful minutes.
I lost the man I truly love for degrading myself and becoming submissive to my sexual desires.
Allowing them to suffocate me under their hold.
To leave me with a burning sensation from a slap to the face when I finally let reality sink in.
Tied down like prey by all the lies ever told.
Trying to take in all the pain I can before it all goes numb.
I finally gave up fighting and let myself drown in the guilt of the mistakes I had dwelt on.
After I lost the man I love.