It Doesn't Matter / I Don't Mind

 
The physical reality of pain strives with such force and tenacity
 
towards my inner thoughts,
  
that within my mental reality, I am driven into a vacuum
  
carrying paths of no recourse ---- whatsoever.
  
If this is the destined case, then. . .
  
1)  I'm dreaming of a Black Christmas.
  
2) Please don't hurt me ----
  a) Someone (?) is already trying.
  
3) Who said that!?
  a) I am alone
  
4)  Death will be the last uncharted frontier.
  a) I think I'll take a vacation.
  
5)  Am I on a leave of absence already?
  a) I'm MAD with anticipation for truth.
  
Matter over mind and / or reverse:
  
Never mind now, as nothing really matters
that mattered within my mind
and I don't.