Heartbeat Existence

Do you see
how losing you
has broken me?
I'd rather not breathe
on days
like these
Missing you in every
heartbeatt,
 I exist small
and weak
For one more hug
to catch your scent
A moment traded
for all days spent
Irreaplacable love
 lost
becomes
the emptiness
at unpayable cost
who am I to find joy
or peace?
when all that i am
curls within
wishing to cease
reach for meaning
so life can move on
all empty searching
without
my son.