the seeker

The Seeker

“Go silent go Deep” a title of a film he saw of Curd Jürgen
an actor who got manly roles and looked good in Nazi uniform,
but somehow was a hero who did the right things.

Alone in the house, he tries to go silent and deep into his mind
pieces of shrapnel of a bombed out U-boat, dead sailors
floating about until a creature takes pity and eats them.

It is semi-dark down here, the bottom is filled by un-digested
words and deleted poems, but he is trying to find his true self
a rare fish not seen by anyone since childhood.

He swims in the shallow picks up small crabs easier to write
about, with tiny claws, they try to bite his fingers, puts them
down and see them seeking shelter.

He sighs, at eighty he still don't know who he is, other than
          he is not embittered, has a sense of irony and often laughs
at himself on his journey to infinity.