Always you

I wanna get the taste of you out of my mouth.
 
I rinse and I rinse and I spit out my pride
 
Still you remain and in plain sight you hide.
 
I see you in the way I fiddle with my hands.
 
Waiting for you to ask why I'm nervous.
 
But you arent there, nobody is.
 
And I'm not nervous, no, I am sad.
 
Even for this I apologize.
 
Waiting for you to scold me and tell me I apologize too much.
 
I grew accustomed to every night on the phone.
 
You are my only speed dial, but tonight I'm left alone.