deepundergroundpoetry.com
2012
a heavy beast, feasts at night. where his wrong doings are out of sight.
a crushing grip, your instant guilt trip. mind stops to offer censorship performance at day,
giving no inclination to those around who trust
or maybe he’s troubled, in a disposition, face shows a life of rust
you ponder from time, your minds against you and fighting just won’t do
but you fought hard that night, your life changed instant, you're crying all night through
like a scratched record, playing over and over, a tortured soul you’ve become
you tried to sleep but waking continues. you'll give anything to be numb
stuck in mind, wait for it to be over, you clean and clean and clean
the fear of being dirty, of not being wanted, life can be so mean
reminding yourself that this doesn’t define the person staring back
but the pain shows through your teary eyes your mirror has a crack
are you too broken to ever be fixed? I hope the answer is no
because right now, you feel as though, you're living in your own shadow
don't show your triggers, you need to feel normal and this is hard at times
you refuse to claim it, the hurt runs deep, just, read between the lines.
a crushing grip, your instant guilt trip. mind stops to offer censorship performance at day,
giving no inclination to those around who trust
or maybe he’s troubled, in a disposition, face shows a life of rust
you ponder from time, your minds against you and fighting just won’t do
but you fought hard that night, your life changed instant, you're crying all night through
like a scratched record, playing over and over, a tortured soul you’ve become
you tried to sleep but waking continues. you'll give anything to be numb
stuck in mind, wait for it to be over, you clean and clean and clean
the fear of being dirty, of not being wanted, life can be so mean
reminding yourself that this doesn’t define the person staring back
but the pain shows through your teary eyes your mirror has a crack
are you too broken to ever be fixed? I hope the answer is no
because right now, you feel as though, you're living in your own shadow
don't show your triggers, you need to feel normal and this is hard at times
you refuse to claim it, the hurt runs deep, just, read between the lines.
Published 9th Nov 2018
| Edited 4th Jun 2020
Author's Note
This one is very personal and hurts me deeply
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