You are Mom

Can you tell me that you dealt with your inner demons  
That i was the only part in this  
When i stand my ground my heart is dismissed
I never knew that love could hurt like this  
I stand there while u gut me  
Like a fish  
We had a family it wasnt enough  
So you had a replacement child  
Because being a sober father to two beautiful babies wasnt enough  
Making then feel less than worthy of your love  
No.
Not here
not while im still breathing.
What i wanna say is baby im sorry for the choices mommy made im sorry i didnt realize dad would much rather hit the pipe,snort some blow would turn his back for some stank ass ho
But when i look in their tear filled eyes they are hurting all ready so i breathe  
Hold them and say daddy made bad choices i love you more than anything i am here and i always will be  
Sometimes being a mom is so tough when i just want to be angry not for me but for them.
I never knew the pain of love until you and even when your not around i still feel it makes me angrier  
Just breathe  
Stay strong
Dont lose your shit because You are Mom.