No Longer

I want to be watching as those sheets are burning into ash where we once made
Love in between them and were talking about everything there was to talk about.
You loved and cared about me? That is complete bullshit and I know it. That suede
 
And soft covering feels rough like calloused, overworked hands. I want to shout
Out until my voice gives out, being completely dead and gone like all the flowers
You once gave me. I should have left you out in the bone-dry dessert like drought
 
So you know what it feels like to be left stranded with no oxygen and rain showers
In sight. I hope you forget what it feels like to be happy when you try to smile or laugh.
I hope that the mountain that I can move within my bare palms scare and towers
 
Over you like the worst nightmare you could ever have. I do not believe every half
Ass apology that comes my way like a rocket ship because people do not apologize
For accidentally hurting someone’s heart they used to admire. All the photographs
 
Have to get burned and erased from memory. All the tears that used to fill my eyes
To the brim have no place in this raw and scrubbed body I call my own. I must walk
Away, leaving behind a blazing forest fire right at my heels and a trail of all the guys
 
That tried to screw or mess around with me, knowing that they are wrong, so talk
All you want to, but I will never believe another damn word that you say. You can
Say sorry for being like every other man along my path, but you are another rock
 
Beneath my feet. I no longer care if you are in my rearview mirror where we began
Or ahead because it is the direction you are heading, but let me make my own plan.