Shadows

Fuck this, my will to love is now deceased. Dead and gone and to remain buried forever. I will never let these walls back down. I never meant for them to crumble, but i can rebuild em just as fast as i let them fall. I will erase you from my mind, i will erase you from my life. You are my toxic narcotic and my sweet infectious disease, you are my life and also my death. I can never trust again, i will not bare that pain. I will not fall into your little trap or try and figure out your game. That game is filled with empty holes and broken lies. But it all seems so transparent and clear like when you finally figure out that the elephant is just a smoke screen. I can sense it, i can see it, but none of it really belongs. My fear is getting to me, my fear just got to me. Thats the same fear thats gonna kill me, end me, or be my demise, but also the same fear that will jumpstart me, reverse me, and make me soar. I will soar so ever high and then i will plunge it to my death. This is where i will meet my maker. Ive been waiting for this day to come, forever. So i knock but nobody answers. I then realize i have no maker because i am the maker. The creator of my own destiny. Destined to die in the most blissful way, but trapped in this fire i cant escape from. The end is near, the end is here, but the end is not what i fear. My only fear will forever be you and i am you, so my only fear will continue to remain myself. Dead and gone, hidden beneath the trees.