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Desirous Descent

I'm weak-willed, I can't escape
The cheap thrills that overtake �
The bleak chills keep me awake �
Deeds fulfilled that I can't erase �
Left feeling lost in time and space �
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Helpless husk, an empty shell �
Selfless lust, contemptuous spell �
Compelled to let impulses overwhelm and take the helm �
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Control relinquished �
My soul diminished �
My plight distinguished �
My light extinguished �
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I attempt to take steer �
Reach for the wheel �
To no avail �
I'm left to hang and reel �
Hooked on a chain �
I swing and flail �
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Of this curse I can't break free �
I must again bend at the knee �
Sign my life to senseless needs �
Defenselessly I'm left to bleed �
No turning back �
I have mindless urges to feed �
I've sworn to stay intact �
While being torn apart by greed �
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Drifting wildly in the gusts �
Living decidedly, blindly thrust �
Into madness, disintegrated �
Fathomless regret integrated �
Bottomless this valley of self-hatred �
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Tortured depths, kept locked away �
Teardrops wept, swept across my face �
A sigh of doubt, I'm rendered hopeless �
No climbing out, descended ropeless �
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