The monster that is you

Its funny how for five years i felt like i was never enough.
But looking back it was you
The put downs
The screaming
The fighting
Making me feel as if i was to blame
Late nights you not coming home
You playing the victim but you were never alone
You held my heart prisoner in this game
Crushing me to the core
When i was hating myself
I should have hated you more
Now i look at what you shattered to pieces my heart and theirs
Someone else another kid an addiction to. My worst nightmare coming true.
Im holding them while they cry longing for their dad again not this stranger in his skin. Your just moving on like they never existed your own children what kind of man can can wake up day to day. With half of him missing.apparently you but as their mother i will protect them from the monster that is you.