Soul Searching

She walks on down the hall    
And through the doors        
Of her own perception        
A crowd of beetles      
Stand and stare      
At Sgt. Tussaud's wax reception        
       
As pale lyrics play        
Soft unusual intentions      
A wisp of thought is caught        
Am I creator or invention        
       
She believes it could be      
Either, both or something else      
And then decides it's difficult        
When looking through        
The clouds of inner self      
       
She sees the veil of time pass by      
Against the past      
It's sheer as lace      
Where memories        
Are almost touched        
And can not be erased      
       
The veil before what is to come      
Is thick as brick and mortar        
With each step to future lifetimes        
Sightless destinies to ponder      
       
A memory then comes to mind        
From time when yellowed page      
was white      
A poem of old, born in her youth        
If she can just remember write      
       
*we've gone around the world        
  in a glass bottom boat      
  the sky is so high        
  and yet we float and float      
       
*the captain turns around to      
  preach a bit about the tide      
  he forgets the words he says      
  and doesn't care that he has lied      
       
It's quite a curious query      
For her to question what it means      
She seems prolonged        
In search of secrets      
Instead of chasing rabbit dreams      
       
So devastating darkened halls      
She glides through        
As an apparition        
In the attempt to contemplate        
The status of her own condition        
       
The labyrinth within her soul      
Holds shattered, stumbling        
Dead end roads      
Mountains cold and valleys deep      
And yet, still no answers        
That she seeks      
       
Calling out uncertainties      
Into the fading foggy air      
Capitulation overwhelms      
Her words      
Is there anybody there?      
       
Thump thump, a heartbeat        
Answers back      
Softly first, then louder      
Pounding        
She's found a door      
Where comes the sound        
It's resonance resounding        
       
Who knocks upon my blackened door      
Who dares tread near my sanctuary        
"I AM" the answer, spoke in truth      
Slaps the face of her uncertainty        
       
A fragile house of cards disturbed        
She crumbles, falling to the floor        
Then begs the guest to come inside        
Where she now lays, nearby the door      
 
Then flooding light both pure and bright  
Send shadow's darkness back to night  
And with cautious, calming care
Lifts her up and dries her tears
       
Forgive me Lord, for I was lost        
She shudders from her sorrow        
I thought today was yesterday        
And I could not find tomorrow        
       
An intimate embrace of peace        
Pervades throughout her being        
To reinforce the love and Grace      
Which proceeds her to believing        
       
Thank you Lord, for finding me      
Inside my hours of despair        
I think myself was blinding me      
Seeing You where always there      
       
So like a child, she curls and clings        
To safety's net from which she swings        
Bathed in the kiss from wind's caught breath        
With mended wings, she flies from death      
       
Up to the heavens above the skies      
Where stars align beyond our view      
She's free to be and sanctified        
Inside love's sacrifice and truth