To Ease Others Pain

No longer can I love,
No longer can I feel,
It's easier this way,
I can't get hurt,
I try to make others happy,
But I only seem to hurt them,
Things would be better if I was dead,
Then the ones I care for wouldn't have to suffer,
I could  make them truelly happy,
I could ease there pain,
Only if I had the guts once more to end it,
No I can only slice my skin and flesh,
I don't care how much I hurt,
As long as they are happy,
There is one inparticular,
I want to see him smile,
My love is strong for him,
But I only seem to hurt him,
He don't think he knows how horrible I feel,
I promised not to give up on him,
I will keep that promise until the end,
And even after that,
We met at the wrtong time,
A time where I was going down,
If he wishes to know how things were then,
He needs only to ask,
I love him