Apathy

I sit here in a quiet and thoughtless state
Isolated I watch all around me connect and communicate
Trying to see these "colors" everyone supposedly talks about
I try and speak, even laugh, but nothing comes aloud
Seeing ones smile, laugh, even breaking down to cry
What is it like to live? What is it like to die
So distant in thoughts that resemble near nothingness
Double eye patched pirate sailing without a compass
I wonder what its like to feel, I wonder what its like to live
Sitting stoned silent waiting for this apathy to give