diary of a deadman 48

She took my hand and told me.
"be careful not to cry your too strong for that,
Turn that frown upside down and begin to smile".
But how do I show strength when she's on her death bed saying her final goodbyes?
Hiding all my tears behind a smile, but deep inside I know that's a lie.
She's running out of time, she's half past beyond life.
I'm hoping she would just close her eyes,
So I can crack open and begin to crush.
Now the smoke clears, and tolling bells rings.
Now her life has fled, silence begins to scream.
I wanna take It all out and begin to cry.
But I tell myself I'm not the first to lose a mother in this life.
So I'll heed her final words.
"be careful not to cry your too strong for that,
Turn that frown upside down and begin to smile".
Though this pain stabs and these wounds don't seem to heal.
Though now she's gone and I've fallen into the path of lonely.
Another orphan living solely.
Though you can see in my eyes that I'm hurting deeply.
I can never let you see my tears.
I can never let you see my weakness in my tears.
I'll honor her memory by heeding her final words
When she said,
"be careful not to cry your too strong for that,
Turn that frown upside down and begin to smile".