Draining The Pain

It's hard
Not to cry
I do try
I even got high
and lay
Looking into the sky
Nothing will ever clarify
My feelings just multiply
No, I can not specify
But my emotions will not be justify
Thereby I must try something new
Just to get through
It does not feel as it is true
I have no clue
I just want it to be threw
No one sees my point of view
If they do
They don"t say
anyway
i must throwaway every memory
Sad to say i can not act as anything has not happened
Its just saddened
I cant help but imagined
Nothing works
No one to talk to
Yes the sky is still blue
I have grew
Just wish i can redo
Its fucked up
I want to cut
The grudge is too strong
Lost i feel
Emotions no longer sealed
I cant even eat a meal
Shit this is real
My heart may never heal
Just alone I will be
Feeling like im overseas
nobody
i do not even know me
Im so different now
I wish i did not allow
But how
When she wanted everything and anything
This shit stings
Now i suffer
But in a way it makes me tougher
It also makes me never want to trust or love
Just need to shove
Me above
If i do not get trough this
I wont be-able to handle the pain
It will just have me on a chain
i will be drained
Its a shame