acceptANCE

I got accepted today
guess its what we are looking for
searching for our tribe that fits our vibe
yet I consider what came before
sharp and rounded fragments reflect
dementia tinged recollections
shattered stars of imperfections
innocence pure
filled both glasses of nature nurture
slowly etched in experience
and surplus genetic deviance
still I got accepted today
half straight half gay
from a spirit extinguishing place
the fire and the heart
expire then depart
ridiculed by role models
feel the fear and do it anyway
an expression of disappointment and dismay
filled with the acidic poison of a victim
evicting caustic empathy
dissolving self proclaimed elegy
accepted today despite rejection
and self imposed solitude
past lives I elude
scrutinised and viewed and deliberately skewed
years of minus lucre
powered by will, alcohol and sucre
I got accepted
six years since slut
five years since jade
four years since god
three years since the pseudo druids life I invade
sleeping on the floor
two seconds from the door
dissolving a past that drags you down
my venlafaxine now kills that frown
letting go
with sadness needing to let go
selfishly because I got accepted
to be fair over the 6,5,4,3 none intercepted
holding on to the tribe composed of smoke
and all things that were broke and bespoke
accepting myself
realising the importance of my mental health
moving forward with my acceptance
no more pretence
I accept my tribe