Deepest Fear

 
 
 
 
 
        My deepest fear is,  
my heart becoming a wasp nest;  
        My deepest fear is.  
my heart becoming a wasp nest;  
        My deepest fear is,  
my heart becoming a wasp nest;  
        My deepest fear is,  
my heart becoming a wasp nest....  
 
 
 
What does that mean?  
It means being numbed so badly,  
your nerves won't recover;  
a sense of pain will subside along,  
with the possibility of never experiencing,  
true peace and happiness....  
 
 
 
sitting in numbness like your soul has left;  
the suffering is still there, without the emotion;  
as if your an empty vessel running its course;  
motivation, purpose, to shake a leg isn't there;  
because the coldness, demanding world and its expectations ran you into the ground, shamed you, because it couldn't shape you....  
 
 
 
 
your heart beat like an echo in an empty, dark, distant  hallway, decaying with your eyes open from the inside out; as excitement seeking was nothing more than a reality check to say," you just do not fit in...."  
detachment from "normal people" who over indulge their work/party life....  
 
 
 
 
 
you sit in silence; as your heart's being chewed to bits....