A Muse Me

You've always been there,
Now you're not;

Somehow gone,
But all I've got.

I'm always so scared,
I fear lots,

Solitude,
And my own thoughts.

When you said you cared,
Was it true?

Or was it just
the lust in you?

Why, after eight years,
Grow silent;

Leave with all your vibrant
guidance?

I'd never resort to violence,
But you know the way my mind gets..

I had the sense to buy your love,
But I didn't know the cost.

I used to believe I was rich,
I never saw how much I'd lost.

A Canyon in my afterthoughts,
Now I clearly see across,

And though you live inside my thoughts,
It's as a warning, not a loss.