Worry.

Sitting in silence enjoying the banter in my head.
Suddenly disturbed from an all to familiar source.
The phone rings; disturbing news.

Panic sets in and I can't beat it back.
What if... What if... What if...

Hands shaking, unable to steady.
Mind racing, never in the lead.
Stomach pit; interjects nausea.

Once banter, now jibberish.
Nervous tension; chaos in my head.
Words/speech come to mind unregulated.

Punctuated non-particularly.

Scared for welfare.
Worried for others.
Far away.
Confusion + unknowing...

Thoughts spit through my brain like static.
I let it go.

Seek escape! Need escape!
Can't handle the pressure.
Seek smoky indulgence to release my mind.

Calm coming.
Organized thoughts.
Back to life.