Bloom

My insides are turning dark as my skin
My mind is turning cold as a winter day in Brooklyn
I'm scared of the thoughts of committing sucide
Maybe i should just take a pill to relax my emotions inside
Fuck the world is what i say when I'm on xanax
Fuuuuuuuuuuck is what i scream in my dreams when i panic
I hate the world and i want answers from the lord
I still want to kill myself i still want to die i still have these crazy fellings inside i don't know if i should cry or if i should just pull the trigger and die
I'm panicking if i should pull the trigger or not my answer is yes gotta go get my license for a glock
I'm sitting here in this dark room feeling bloom knowing I'm going to die soon
I feel no one would care if i die i can't make any friend so why should i try no one would care if i die this feeling is getting stronger inside I'm long gone bye bye