Awkward Silence

It's different now between you and me.
Kinda funny how things change-
Like right this second-
Can you hear it?
That awkward silence,
Just hanging there between everything we say,
(Or don't say).
There was a time I depended on you-
Needed you-
Craved you-
Couldn't live without you-
You were the essence of who I truly was.
I trust you and only you,to hold back,
WhY I can't hold in.
So, ill always return to you-
Seeking the peace of your atonement.
But, we both know that everyone
Loses faith from time to time--
Maybe its shame or greed,
Or any of the other deadly sins.
I don't claim to be perfect-
Never have--
But, where were you-
Last week, last month, last year?
I got nothing.
So, I'll savour this moment,
Cause you're my only true release...
My first thought,
My last resort.
You are my comfort and my confidence,
But sad to say,
I need you most
when I can't seem to find the tight words.
So, if I can't have you when I want you-
I have no problem sitting safely
In this awkward silence.
Eventually something will come to mind,
That's the beauty of it all.