A lost boy

Have you ever been both happy and sad at the same time?
Well, I am constantly.
I am happy that I came out of the closet to my parents about being a boy,
It saddens me that they say it is a phase.
I am happy I am able to be me online.
It makes me sad to know that the internet is the only place I can be me.
It made me happy when I came out as gay a year later.
It saddened me to know my parents thought I am probably just a tomboy who is straight and confused.
I am happy that I have friends who support me and care for me.
...I am sad that I have to turn to them instead of my own family.
I want to be happy but I am constantly sad.
I want to be accepted and loved,
but I have come to terms with the fact that I'm not.

I am happy I can write this.
I am sad that I have to.