Who I've Become

I am
who I said I would be
I would be.
The girl who doesn't care.
The girl with a half-way undeserved reputation.
What I haven't done I will.
The girl you'd never fight.
The girl you want as an ally.
Who will defend you,
for a price.
She must be repaid.
The girl who is strong.
Never scared.
Never stressed.
Never touchable,
in the emotional sense.
Physically, you know what she does.
You know her boyfriend.
She's loyal.
She's his.
Uncannily devoted to him.
No warnings could change her mind.
In her eyes it's love.
Not pleasure.
Not a hook-up.
She keeps her promises to him, expecting him to do the same.
All the other girls,
the ones who used to be her friends, her sisters,
look on in jealousy and disgust.
In hate.
They wish they were like her.
They wish they knew.
They cast her out, she is different.
They take back their promises, take back their friendship.
From the girl who does not care.
She has always been on her own.
She expects no friends, no support.
Life hands her the shortest stick, and
 she uses it to beat the hell out of her life.
A vicious cycle.
I am who I said
I would be.
I don't answer to you, not to anybody.
I'm the girl you cannot stand,
I'm the lies you believe,
I'm the truth you deny,
I'm the life you destroyed.
Where are my reinforcements?
Right here,
my heart, my soul, my hand.
Fighting against you,
and your injustice.
Breaking your chains.
I am the undefinable solider.
And this war is not over yet.
I will always be under attack.
As long as it's worth fighting,
I will fight.
Never tire.
Never quit.
I've become who I said I would never be.
Her.