A Distance

There are days,  
I feel the distance between us  
a distance in time  
a distance of place  
a distance of space  
I sense him there behind a door  
closed to me  
a mind divide  
a cover of his life inside  
I try and look between the lines  
to hear his pain  
to feel he’s weary  
to comprehend the theory  
However, only a hypothesis I find  
a wonder  
a guess  
a game of chess  
Lost am I, who knows not the game  
who is confined  
to my dark square  
hovering there  
Our conversation once had journeyed  
yet now here am I  
standing still  
bones are chilled  
Who am I, in this square  
four corners  
four lines  
a box, no shine  
Who am I, standing here  
just a dream  
just a mirror  
image of unclear.  
 
There are also days  
when I put distance between myself and God  
a distance in time  
a distance of place  
a distance of space  
Yet, God sees me here, behind this door  
closed by me  
a mind divide  
a cover of my life inside  
He looks and sees between the lines  
of my defense  
He knows I’m weary  
He comprehends more than theory  
More than simply hypothesis  
He finds more than wonder  
beyond a guess  
God is Master of this game of chess  
Lost am I, who misinterprets the game  
but always He finds me  
no matter the square  
no matter the pain, hovering there  
My prayer becomes our conversation  
Our conversation becomes a journey  
and even when He whispers “Be still...”  
He is guiding me into His will  
Who am I, reshaped from that square
no corners  
no lines  
a rounded clay pot, now filled with shine  
God, who am I, standing here
more than a dream  
a reflection of of You  
a person with purpose both good and true.  
 
 
 
“Then I realized that my heart was bitter, and I was all torn up inside. I was so foolish and ignorant— I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you. Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever. Those who desert him will perish, for you destroy those who abandon you. But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.”  
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭73:21-28‬ ‭NLT‬‬