A Part

I made it this far
No life no pain no scar
No soul for being barred
From heaven to be bart-
Ered from off from sainthood I depart
But we all have our sins
But from mine I stand a little far
It seems that we're apart
But all that sordid shit
Is every single part
Of me
Funny how I told you once
That I was such a good guy
Like I had all my goods right
I couldn't even feed my hood, sigh
Sustenance changes
The person I was seems the strangest
But somehow I cling
Like I wanted to survive
Not just be alive, but thrive
Live life somehow
But somehow I feel stuck
Within eternal now