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I wake up
Only to fall back asleep
I cut
Only to cut too deep
I hurt
Only to hurt too many
I have too little
But always say I have plenty
I don't like to hurt people
And I don't like violence
But instead of trying to stop it
I just sit in cold silence
I have rituals for when animals die
They say tell the truth
And I always lie
I am a disgrace to humanity
And I don't know why
The person I love the most won't leave my side
I have many problems
And they seem to haunt me everyday
But he, the one for me, will never look away
He helps me get through the most emotional times
He makes me happy
Pisses me off
Makes me happy again
And then we just unwind
We tell eachother
Everything
From past relationships to failed suicide attempts
And he doesn't judge me
Not one bit
He just wants me to get better
He doesn't want me to hurt
He says he wants to be with me forever
Together buried in the dirt
I don't know what it is with his brain
That is keeping him with me
But I hope and pray to God
That it never leaves