Glimpses

Once i got in that large room..
I knew i'll be seeing her..
Among hundreds of them..
I felt it..
I knew it..
I searched  the place with prying eyes..
For a moment i gave up..
And away in that corner..
I saw her setting there..
Her hair at first..
Then her long-lost face ..
I stood there stealing the glimpses..
With a hungry heart..
I didn't move an inch ..
Didn't go any closer..
Though i wanted it more than life ..
Instead I prayed to the "no God" that i know ..
For her not to see me..
Not to see the wreck i became..
I didn't want to see the "careless" once again..
After the way she used to lay in my arms ..
But suddenly she took that look upon her shoulder..
Right to where I am ..
like if she's got my message through those who stood around..
And though i was dying to look her in the eyes..
I looked down ashamed..
Of my love that lasted through the years..
And without one last glimpse i left..
Hiding the tears ..
I left ..