Afraid of my heart

My crush for you
Hit me like a ton of brick
I was sent off balance
I must escape from this

I’d repeat
This cannot be real
I’m delusional, I’m empty
I don’t know how to feel

But you seemed like someone
I could easily fall for
And so these thoughts plagued me
Causing an internal war

So my heart went running
But denying my feelings was an empty crime
For I knew they’d catch up
It was only a matter of time

How could I confront you
When I could barely speak
My feelings won’t be reciprocated
I’m too weak

Telling someone about your emotions
That are piercingly real
Is how hearts are broken
And you’re left too numb to feel

So forgive my hesitation
Because I was afraid
Due to deep rooted fear
From a history of being betrayed

I was afraid you’d use me
But instead you stole my heart
Now I’m so lonely
All torn apart