Honest Truth

I honestly wish I could be angry and say screw you,
But I know you have either been the worst or best
Mistake I have made. You always helped me grow
And let me be myself, but you also showed me who
Would be right there with me at 1 AM when the rest
Of the world was still asleep. For someone who was
Going to help me silence my insecurities you made
Them scream louder than any of the words that
I could write on paper. The laughter and applause
Was being drowned out by the heavily weighted
Sound of my heartbeat. All of those questions I sat
With for so long were finally making their way
Into the light and maybe in that moment of clarity
With the tears streaming down my face, I finally
Understood that it was no one’s fault. I had to stay
With the truth that in today’s world it is rarity
To find someone like you and it gives me sobriety.