Letting Go (Surrender)

The souls on my shoe are flapping
The band on my watch is loose
As I dry myself off with my own
sweaty shirt I wonder:
who will have me like this?

I’m a June-Bug
Crawl when I can fly
& more often than not
End up helpless on
My back
& forth
& back
& forth

Think I’ll have another cigar
Cheap cigar in one hand
Twix Bar ‘tween the fingers
of the other
They smell like
gram-cracker
No greater kick
Than lightin’ a cheap-ass
cigarillo
With a shit-ball
Lighter
& lighter
& lighter the load
Blow smoke in that
June-Bug’s face
& watch him scoot
& watch him coil up
& watch him move on

Janked up bike
The chain keeps catching
My Life is a perpetual
Impulse
For after all
what is Life?
I am destined to die
i yam what i yam
says ARTURO
He never thought I’d use
Him
Showed Him!
now dinna i…

All you need for
happiness is a firm
foundation in the Lord
& the right anti-depressant
& the right anti-psychotic
& the…OCD tendencies
psychosis diagnosis
defined yet not confined
to the impersonalizations
of your’s truly insane
& psychiatrist
& psychologist
& parole officer
*oopse*

Samuel Stephens
(Mr. Stephens)
(Say the name)
(of)
(your attorney)
Samuel Stephens
(or)
Statement’s For Bond Forfeiture

Now I have to piss on demand
I Can’t Piss On Demand!
I can’t even sleep on demand
oh well
It’s so easy to turn a
Peace Sign
into a
Byrd
all you have to do is
surrender
one finger, two dots, then derrick brown
one in two in one equals five
one black cloud turns the sky to fit its mood
And the fly will not let me be
Perhaps I’ll live

06-24-10