As I Slowly Go Insane

Verse 1  
Insanity grips the minds of the people  
Of those who dare open the door  
To their hearts, which always get broken  
Until they just can't take it no more  
   
Verse 2    
Love is the most beautiful emotion  
As long as it doesn't sour  
It can rape your feelings and scar your soul  
It is given that kind of power  
   
Refrain 1  
So I drink 'til the feelings leave  
And deny the anguish and pain  
I fall to my knees as I beg your pardon  
Please don't drive me insane  
   
Verse 3  
I want to be happy again  
But I have somehow forgotten how  
Taken by the one that I loved the most  
And there is no chance of healing now  
   
Verse 4  
I tell myself that life must go on  
And that this isn't who I am  
But who am I really, it's so hard to remember  
The voices tell me I don't need to give a damn  
   
Refrain 2  
So I shoot up 'til the feelings leave  
And deny the anguish and pain  
But there are demons on my doorstep  
As I slowly go insane  
   
Verse 5  
You can find me in the gutter  
Passed out in the driving rain  
As it has become abundantly clear  
That I will never again be sane  
   
Refrain 3  
The drink and the drugs don't stop the feelings  
And I am FILLED with anguish and pain  
My brain is on fire and I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER  
I know now that I have finally ..... gone ..... insane