The Abyss of a Trapped Mind (Alter Ego)

A growth of darkness unresponsive as the sunrises with a struggle neither side can win, so he remains expressionless and dim within rich and vibrant colors lacking something necessary, marking limits to clarify this outline setting forth the meaning ... Free from self, depriving the coloration of autumn leaves ... His alter ego on edge as the sunsets.....
Having that, "I don't care what the outcome may lead to", give it to me anyway type of attitude when the given was already giving away - a way... (My soul) which flat lined a long time ago and yet my heart still beats in spirit as to yet, I still remain breathless .... I must be in a deep in-between life and death  bipolar coma transcending.... Damn this is such a schizophrenic feeling uncommon in common thats not making any sense ... is this THE ABYSS OF A TRAPPED MIND or maybe his alter ego sick and tired of being suppressed and confined even though his prison has no bars but his freedom isnt freeing when it still sits afar, (can you see how it's dawned upon) .....