Self ish?

Like me but not me, like you want me to be
Like me but not me, just a shade untrue
Would you like me? Not the me like me, but the real me?
It's been so long that I've been this me
the me that isn't really me
and I'm not sure you'd know the real me
or that I would, if we met him
 
I'm not exactly lying, I'm filtering
taking the image and brushing it off
blurring the rough patches, carving off the fat
soft focus applied to the truth
vintage lighting and a sepia tone
tempers the harsh edges
 
We've been together so long, I've grown, and so have you
but have we grown together or apart?
Fear keeps the real me hidden
behind the old me, and he peeks out sometimes
and sometimes you frown at him, so he goes back
But does he hide for me, or does he hide for you?
fear of losing you, or fear of setting you free?
 
Like me but not like me, self ish?
Like me but not me, selfish?
You deserve the truth, but does the truth deserve you?
The truth of me, of who I've become?
Of who I've always been? Is there really a difference?
Can I be the better me? Can you love the lesser me?
Selfish or self ish, am I only fooling myself?