THE REAL ME

I HAVE BEEN ASKED WHO I AM
THEY CALL ME COCO SOME CALL ME FAM
CAME FROM A BACKGROUND OF ABUSE AND RAPE
DREAMS I COULD NOT ESCAPE
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS OF ME SCREAMING
FIGHTS THAT LEFT ME STEAMING
SUICIDE ATTEMPTS FILLING MY MIND
DO I USE A KNIFE OR A GUN LIKE MY DEATH HAS BEEN SIGNED
LET ME SIT BACK AND REWIND ON MY PAST
I HAVE TRIED TO FORGET IT WENT BY SO FAST
GREW UP WITHOUT A FATHER NOR A MOTHER
RAISED BY MY GRANDMA HAD TWO SISTERS NO BROTHER
I STAYED IN CHURCH FAITHFULLY ON EVERY SUNDAY
TURNED BACK INTO A THUG GIRL BY MONDAY
I WAS RAPED AT AGE OF ELEVEN
VIRGINITY TOOK BY SOMEONE THAT WAS TWENTY-SEVEN
FRIEND OF THE FAMILY I THOUGHT WAS COOL
SEE HOW THE DEVIL CAN MAKE U OUT TO LOOK LIKE A FOOL
I BEEN STRUGGLING WITH THIS SINCE I WAS YOUNG
PROBLEMS AROSE IN MY RELATIONSHIPS MORE HURT THAT STUNG
I HAVE TRIED TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE
THERE HAS ONLY BEEN ONE THAT UNDERSTOOD ME
I ENDED UP WALKING AWAY FROM SOMEONE THAT KNEW ME INSIDE OUT
IN MY HEART THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE WILL ALWAYS DWELL NO DOUBT
I WONT LET ANYTHING HOLD ME BACK FROM SUCCESS
NEVER WOULD I HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD BE THIS BLESSED
SENIOR IN COLLEGE WITH A PROMISING CAREER
AFTER ALL THE SHYT I BEEN THRU LET ME STAND AND CHEER
NEVER WOULD OF MADE IT WITHOUT YOU IS MY FAV SONG
TEARY EYED AND FULL OF JOY I CAN SING IT ALL DAY LONG
SO YOU NOW KNOW A LITTLE MORE ABOUT THE REAL ME
THIS IS MY LIFE SUM UP IN THIS WRITING CALLED POETRY