The Stranger Inside

Bury me further down, this ground can't hold me
I'm so old but I feel so young  
I've been living in a life so cold I can't feel warmth  
I'm so young but I feel so old  
 
Light the fire inside and hold me close
Those I loved made me who I once was
They question who I am and why I'm doing what I'm doing  
I'm so wrong in their eyes because I no longer hold their image  
 
I'm filling it up and pouring it out  
I've been changing and shaping what I am
My mind was never solid but a mirage of twisting shapes  
How do I hold to what I want and not what I need  
 
Douse the fire and push me away  
Those I love tell me to be this and be that  
Till I look in the mirror and see a stranger inside  
There's a difference between who I am and who they see  
 
Do I take the image I'll be remembered for
And wash it away with my blood and sweat
Do I take the image I see inside my dark mind
And paint it's resemblance with my blood and tears