Closing My Eyes With Blood

Here I lie again lost in darkness.
Walls around me leering with cold.
I lie here trapped in a cycle of tension.
I spiral into the center.
Sheets wrapped around me like bandages.
Turning jumping spasms of the night.
A cylinder in black hearing a subversion.
An outward force hammering from the inside.
Fabric of the strains my only comfort.
Pulling running through the insides like chains.
A fine movement which goes nowhere.
An endless flow of dense matter pushes out.

I've been up all night closing my eyes with blood.

Kept awake and shaken every night, I long for someone to comfort me.
I'm begging you, please soothe me from my heinous, abhorrent mind.
Falling down, spinning in a spiral I'm flat on my bed in misanthropic desolation.
Won't you love me and see beyond my antipathy?
Desperation is driving me to madness, I can't take being alone any more.
Too tormented to sleep, too tired to move.
I called out in agony but you never came.
Tired and desperate I lie here, in trauma, miserable, desolate.

I've been up all night closing my eyes with blood.