I sat waiting for You

I sat waiting for you 
If I was a cow  
I'd be slaughtered by now  
 
My insides laying on a cold floor  
And where would you be?  
 
I sat waiting for you
Like a child left at school  
Could you be more cruel  
 
And Me making excuses  
Not wanting to know what's true  
 
I sat waiting for you
Inflicting my own pain  
It was easier burning myself again  
 
When will I ever learn  
To stop giving so much of myself
And getting so little in return

I keep forgetting you're a man not a god