I'll be there for you

You always said you'd be there for me
But you have a funny way to show it..

Granted I haven't always been the best
But at least my promise wasnt ever put to the test
To lay to rest the negative stress Invested
In keeping you down.

And when nobody was there for you, or so you thought,

I was there.

And when you cried out saying you'd die alone from this curse of sadness that everybody doesnt get because they don't suffer it like you do..

I was there..

I was there to take on your burdens along with my own, because I have learned through self hate that the only thing worth looking for in a mirror is a smile, and I find joy in taking the suffering away from those who hurt the most even if I end up the most hurt and even if it is only for a little while.

So when you hurt and cry out to the world expecting no response.

I'll be there.

I'll be there to support you alone,
Back breaking,
Sweat dripping
But its fine I'm used to the labor.
Because at the end of the day
When I sit and I pray
It feels like even God doesn't even listen anymore.

You said you'd always be there for me, but it doesn't mean much when I'm not even there for myself.

-ILL