Wandering thoughts

I woke up today feeling the sickness
Of life bearing down on me there's  too many illusions
What's gonna stay what's going to fade
New poison floods thru my veins today

I never learned to hold it in
When I do I feel rotten
I fester with insecurities
Fears
The unknowing
I've had people try to kill me
I sleep with my nina right next to me

I want to be free
I hate exceptions
The world doesn't owe you anything
Self entitled
Seems to be a virus
Its spreading to the masses
Heart attack nose bleed no chances

Its a new year
Full of new tears
Waiting to open doors
Explore a new world
Or end up dead on the floor
Blank cold eyes
Stare
Into nowhere