meth you dirty whore

Raven, it is so hard to read these words of yours! It's like watching Fay Ray about to be swallowed by King Kong when there is nothing I can do, but then even worse, he's got a hard on for her and it is gonna be a messy morning... not to be funny, I'm really hurting for you and afraid you might not survive. How do I comment on a poem that leaves me speechless?
JJ

thank you dearest poet for your sincere honesty
I apologize for any distress i've caused..

sincerely Raven

^^^^
what jj said.
*
you & i have shared
briefly
our addictions.
i sometimes think
in terms of
the lesser
of two evils
& know
i'm just lying to myself...
... sending my love
xo

thank you beautiful poetess
yes sigh we have had brief talks
about addiction..

I'm guilty of thinking well it's
better then my past addiction
I don't know maybe i'm fooling myself..

love Raven

This is terrific writing  smackdownraven
it's raw,gritty,sad,and as real as it comes.
it's delightful in an unhappy way.

it makes me think of a person eating breakfast alone at a busy hotel nook in the morning
all of these people passing and not one to sit down and talk with, connect with
even for a few moments
everyone moving like ghosts
in the grey

well penned and i hope the universe throws you a bone.

thank you dearest poet
for the awesome review
& analogy..

~Raven

i really doubt its a co-incidence
the anagram of methamphetamine - tha empath, me, mine

you're doing pretty darn well Dear Raven
slaying the demon- one slash of a poem at a time

blade.

your pen.

your expression above
conveys the blunt and raw
the encounters the struggle and standing up

"tomorrow's tears    
already stain my face    
 
it's not even here    
& i'm plotting    
our next encounter    
 
one sniff of your cunt    
& i'm up all night     "

yes.
fall a 1000 times, stood up 1001.
never out,
never.

thank you dearest poet
for the anagram knowledge
I never new that though it is interesting..

no never count me out..

~Raven

thank you dearest poetess
for such a fucking fantastic comment
made me smile wide :)

~Raven

This is simply bad ass. Fucking point, raw n relentless...loved it...whooee!

thank you dearest poet
i'm overjoyed at your response :)

~Raven

Very intense read Raven. You always inspire me with your brutal honesty, no matter how much it hurts to read it, or how much it hurts to write it, keep strong dear friend.

thank you beautiful poetess
you deeply inspire as well..

love Raven

Dearest Raven, as you can see from all your fellow poets/poetesses
you're not alone in your fight for we all are pulling for you.

Stay strong my lovely poetess, "one day at a time".

Teri

thank you beautiful Teri
your words of encouragement
are deeply felt..

love Raven

great imagery! I know people with addiction and I see some of this in them sad to say. This sounds like its coming from a first hand account? They imagery of the drug being like a prostitution and the addict being the "john" is very lyrical and that is really good! If you write any more poems about drugs maybe you could write about more of some of the effects of the drug when used? Overall this is a really good poem though!

thank you dearest poet
yes this is a first hand account..

I have written drug poems about both
the highs & lows of it..

here's a couple if you're interested..

https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/286608-the-meth-diaries-frozen-in-the-ice/

&

https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/286484-no-keys-to-wonderland-chasing-white/

love Raven

the title says it all a graphic and raw write but not without beauty :-)))

Huge hugs :-)))))

thank you graciously dearest David forgive my tardy reply..

love & hugs..

Raven

Yeah I liked that one cause funny but also very serious at the same time and also spoke truthfully so yes you were right enjoyed very much thank you for the send

yes it's funny but yes serious in that on this particular night everyone around me was getting high and I had no money and no one was being generous with my broke ass and it stung..

thank you I knew you would understand..

love Raven

Damn bet that sucked. Also bet one of them people has asked you for some yeah but that night you never crossed their minds awe it's life what you going to do right you just had to do extra the next time to makeup for the loss of that night lol

it's the nature of the beast yeah I would never let someone suffer if I had some to share..if we don't look out for each other who will?

It's never easy to share these kinds of deep, consistently painful truths with an audience, no matter how good we poets may be at burying the most painful bits in metaphors and alternate imagery. Personally, I think it's doubly brave of you to share as most poets I've met (and I include myself) acquired the title first by being the most sensitive of souls. I've never suffered an actual medical addiction, so I don't dream of drawing a straight comparison to myself, but I barely knew my mother growing up and haven't spoken to her in years due to actions she took under the influence of multiple substances; there's multiple reasons I choose not to speak to her now, but having grown up since the truth of the grey areas of such things has opened up more and more to me. As such, it's become my opinion that everyone latches on to something to keep them afloat through life's knots of misery and breaking points, and the 'it' in question is usually not something we can carry on forever and stay healthy and sane, though everything in us tries to tell us different. Your struggles are made all the more real by not only your deep descriptions of feeling and the living pain on the page, but your choice to write it at all, and furthermore to share it.

I hope it has given you at least a piece of the catharsis you deserve. In the meantime, I for one am honored. Thank you for your bravery :)

PS: it's also just a good poem, no question :D

thank you dearest Taurus for bravely sharing your own personal history with me... I know it brings with it twinges of pain...I know I have to get clean I have in all honesty been relying on one substance or another for my adult life...I'm going on vacation Monday and I will be removed from temptation for about a week it's my hopes I can return home and have some resolve about discountinuing my usage as it's a very small amount and really more of a crutch than anything...I will tell you honestly I get frightened by the down time when I've tried to previously quit... days where i'm lethargic and can't seem to focus to write sanity tells me given time this will pass I always become impatient with my healing pushing myself to go on even if it's to my detriment...anyway there it is...you have a beautiful soul and I ache for your own personal pain...thank you for such loving and thoughtful sharing...

love Brenda

A large part of why I haven't seen much of my daughter the last year or so has been tied to helping my ex-wife move through her own demons with alcohol (to be clear: her struggles with booze were not directly the cause of our divorce; that was far more my doing back in my young and stupid villain days). Such things are difficult for the person in question and anyone tied to them that gives a sliver of a shit. In her case, it was less craving for booze specifically and more an escape hatch from twenty other kinds of pain she rarely found the energy to deal with. She is a lot better now, though she still has her days; I've been helping from a distance, and it's tough to say the least.

A vacation sounds perfect, do what you need to do. Keep your heart open, I think I speak for everyone here when I say we believe in you and you have our hands of comfort.

thank you dearest Taurus for sharing so openly...you lend me courage with my own demons I'm happy your ex-wife is doing better with dealing with her own...villian days sounds interesing...

love Brenda