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Just Because You're Paranoid
Braving the frigid city air once again
It's felt like a while or more
Since I've been subjected to the gawking eyes
Gleaming tirelessly at my miserable posture
And My weak shaken steps shaping a non linear path
So queer and benign
I only made it a block or two
Before my pathetic repose began to run out of steam
And the limited motivation I carried
Dwindled into an unrecognizable amount of withered vigilance
A shattered bastion fallen to the merciless hordes around me
So Harsh and unsympathetic
I just wanted to be back in the shade
Of my silent apartment where I spend all my time
A tepid retreat from the stalking entourage I've assembled
Or merely created through worry
Bloodthirsty wolves with swords for fangs and engines for hearts
So obnoxious and just
It's felt like a while or more
Since I've been subjected to the gawking eyes
Gleaming tirelessly at my miserable posture
And My weak shaken steps shaping a non linear path
So queer and benign
I only made it a block or two
Before my pathetic repose began to run out of steam
And the limited motivation I carried
Dwindled into an unrecognizable amount of withered vigilance
A shattered bastion fallen to the merciless hordes around me
So Harsh and unsympathetic
I just wanted to be back in the shade
Of my silent apartment where I spend all my time
A tepid retreat from the stalking entourage I've assembled
Or merely created through worry
Bloodthirsty wolves with swords for fangs and engines for hearts
So obnoxious and just
Published 30th Dec 2017
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31st Dec 2017 4:50am
"Braving the frigid city air once again
It's felt like a while or more
Since I've been subjected to the gawking eyes
Gleaming tirelessly at my miserable posture
And My weak shaken steps shaping a non linear path
So queer and benign"
I can feel and see you walking down the streets.. in such a way..
This piece pains my heart to see of how it made me realize just how many people out there feels this way... because I have as well..
I am aching..
H
It's felt like a while or more
Since I've been subjected to the gawking eyes
Gleaming tirelessly at my miserable posture
And My weak shaken steps shaping a non linear path
So queer and benign"
I can feel and see you walking down the streets.. in such a way..
This piece pains my heart to see of how it made me realize just how many people out there feels this way... because I have as well..
I am aching..
H
31st Dec 2017 5:39am
Social anxiety is a terrible thing to deal with . I was partly in control of it for some time but things have been getting away from me lately . Especially with certain events that I only thought I was overly worried about becoming more of a reality . Things will get better though .
Thanks for the time . It's greatly appreciated .
-El
Thanks for the time . It's greatly appreciated .
-El
I hope you get back more control and that I never lose as much.
"A tepid retreat from the stalking entourage I've assembled
Or merely created through worry "
This is so unfortunately relateable.
"A tepid retreat from the stalking entourage I've assembled
Or merely created through worry "
This is so unfortunately relateable.
2nd Jan 2018 1:15am
Thank you Dr_ manchild . Some days are better than others but I know I can maintain a grasp on it with enough perseverance. Greatly appreciate your words .
