Self Love

I battle with you daily  
These twists and turns are driving me crazy  
One minute I'm fine, the next  
 I'm perplex  
It shouldn't be this hard to love your self  
 
Why is it sooo hard  
It's not like I could have dealt my own card  
If so  
I would have been light skinned  
With a cute button nose  
 
Not a bell pepper nose  
Something I would have never chose  
With a nose as big as mine  
No wonder my love is blind  
 
I can't seem to look past my imperfections  
The nose is just one  
I have plenty more plus one  
Starting with my skin  
 
Not only has it been engraved in me  
To believe my black isn't beautiful  
But I can't believe I honestly believe it  
Looking in the mirror I see me  
 
Like, I'm too unaware of my inner beauty  
And my outer shine  
why do my eyes not see me  
Like other people see me  
 
Could it be the constant ridicule from the world  
To the extent you question what beauty is  
Taught to believe black isn't beautiful  
Because my skin was sun-kissed  
And considered shine-less, dimmed, and starless  
 
Because I'm black  
Its the confidence I lack  
When told your color has no glimmer  
So your love for your self gets dimmer  
And  dimmer  
 
Then I walk away  
With this unconfident walk  
Shamed everywhere I go  
Because my black isn't beautiful  
 
Wishing I could stop a crowd like Beyonce  
And not care what he say or she say  
Learn that my appearance is only the cover of me  
And my personality is the pages that complete me  
 
So then I imagine  
My eyes twinkling in the night  
Gleaming at the stars  
For a second I lost sight for what was right  
 
How is it that I let others define me  
Instead of me just being who I want to be  
Not worry what people think of me  
I can't change my physical appearance  
 
I can not control the melanin  
It is the shield that pigments many shades of colors  
That protects you and I from the harsh rays  
I cant change my ancestors geographic map of the world  
They were all sun kissed  
 
FACT is  
I did not ask to be this way  
I didn't ask for this nose  
I didn't ask to be black  
I didn't ask to be here  
 
BUT  
I can ask for acceptance with self  
I can love every flaw  
I can believe my black is beautiful  
I can be confident  
 
Give yourself  
 Self love  
Because if you can't love your self  
Who will?