Aftermath

 
While I gaze into the starlight, numbed I feel no remorse  
For all I've left behind, I have let life run its course  
 
But as I lower my eyes, as I take a look around  
I wonder where it all went, everything is coming down  
Like ashes from a blaze, I wish for nothing but to wake  
In the warmth of my own bed, in my most familiar place  
 
Yet I blink and I'm still here, and I pinch my tender flesh  
It won't vanish that fast, I'm surrounded by this mess  
While I stand here in stunned silence, while the shock is setting in  
I am overcome by memories, as my world is stretched so thin  

Feeling glimmers running down my face, of dreams forgotten and erased  
Then crashing to the ground, so meaningless yet profound  
 
I blink again and turn away, for here I can no longer stay  
Now that everything is gone, I know right where I belong  
 
Now that I have been displaced, no one to help relieve the pain  
What can I do but quietly endure  
Now I see all the light fade, I know the price that I have paid  
Will eat away at me forevermore  
 
It all hits me at once, the grief  
The realization, disbelief  
The earth rises to greet me, legs no longer holding weight  
There is nothing left to see, as I resign to my fate  
 
To live on with this ball and chain,  
I know I'll never be the same  
 
How can I move ahead, when my whole life is behind  
Yet while looking back is torture, looking forward leaves me blind