I Found Out Today Maybe I'm Not So Brave

I found out today that maybe I'm not so brave.
I found out maybe I'm not so immune to heartbreak.
Like a virus pumping through my heart into my veins.  
A deadly virus of bottled up emotions and constant pain.              
Realizing you were that one who got away.
          
You somehow broke me down piece by piece.
Taking remains with you, so when I rebuild, I'll never be complete.        
It was that day you took my self esteem.
So, I found out today that maybe I'm not so brave.
Because you took all that I ever gave, killed it slowly, and dragged it down to its grave.  
Rendering it to nothing; rendering me to nothing.      
It was then I realized something.
I'll never be the same.

You opened the locked cage that kept all my fears tamed.
You became the padlock on the door, then you unlatched.
Bringing out everything I've kept ever back; my fears of being attached.
You want to know why I'm maybe not as brave as I thought anymore?
Because you welcomed me into your home when I was alone and vulnerable then you slammed the door..

You left me alone and without a home to live.
You sipped away at the glass that contained whatever love I had left to give.
And as sad as it may be,
I was only brave when I woke up in the morning, and you were the first thing I'd see.