I'm Too Deep....Even For Myself.

Whatever I do, I do it deeply. Emotions are things that I know all too well about. I'm very intense, and sometimes I bring others into my intense world. Some can handle it, while others tend to cower. Some are still around, while others have retreated back into their plain meager worlds. I like deep conversations about various topics. I like people who use their brains for something other than preventing their skulls from collapsing onto itself. I love deeply and I hate deeply. These are good and bad traits I know. This is why I'm into art, poetry, and writing. It takes a deep person to appreciate these things. I love that I am deep. It shows compassion, it shows individuality, and it shows that I can be passionate. It might take a lot to get me to open up, but I've got good reasons. If you can be patient with me, I'll introduce you to my intensity. I am so damn introverted. But, it's the quiet people you have to look out for. I don't live my life to please others. They don't live to please me, or do they give a shit. This may make me a bit of an outcast, but it's the outcasts that followers look for to do the dangerous missions when things get heavy. I am who I am! I love to learn about others and I love to learn about myself. I'm learning new things everyday. Extreme intensity! Sounds good to me. Extreme sports are cool, but nothing beats learning about your own inner self and bringing others into it. I surprise myself sometimes. While searching for my inner self, I discover who, what, and how I am. We spend so much time trying to please others and learn about others, but we forget to look within ourselves. An old friend of mine once told me, "You can't change anyone but yourself. If you don't like what's going on, you can only change you," I never understood this fully until I became an adult. I got out in the world and started looking beyond what is college. I noticed that the outcasts became very successful and street smart. No one gives a fuck how popular you were in high school and pretty you were. There's a bigger world out there and I'm noticing things that others overlook. I enjoy the little things that are really big things. I will notice the little things in others and embrace them. It's the little things that can turn intense as far as we will allow. I don't know how much more intense I can get. I'm looking forward into discovering it though. Physical, mental, and emotional intensity. I think that sounds pretty hot, and we artists can see things from all sorts of perspectives. I'm done trying to be liked by others. I'm done trying to fit in where I don't belong. I am a puzzle piece that is dark, trying to fit into a puzzle picture that has a blue sky and beautiful field of flowers in it's scene. I think I fit into a picture that has a dark sky full of stars. Stars remain a mystery, but people can't help but to stare at them at night. Comparing intensity to a flower or a star, I choose the star. It doesn't matter to me that it's surrounded by darkness :)